Life is messy. Nobody's perfect, physically and mentally. Probably, emotionally to. And also, people couldn't stand being betrayed by a friend we thought who is nice, generous and the one that you could count on. And you couldn't stand your mother getting mad at you once nor twice. You can't bare to look at people when they fall and then laugh or pretend to look concerned but, inside your heart, you're actually saying, 'Hah, pity you!'. Or, you feel like you like someone, but he doesn't like you back. You know, I'm experiencing all of them so, don't pretend that you're the one and screaming out loud, 'Why am I the only girl?' Well, now you know you're not. I was betrayed, being laughed at, my mum screaming at me every single day, a lot of homework, had a boy who liked my bestie. Don't you think it's rather hard? No. But it is. It's really stressful, and I can't concentrate in class, can't sleep, cry almost every day, and nearly killed myself with a pair of scissors. Right beside my veins. Yes. I acted stupidly before. Now I realized I should wake up and don't do things without thinking first. This year has it's ups and downs. You see, there's this guy, there's this dress, there's this ex, there's this friend, there's this blablabla. The worst thing is friendship. And you know what is strange? The best thing is friendship. There are friends who are backstabbers, are nice, are honest and polite, there are friends who is selfish, stubborn and stuffs. And I'm one of them. I'm probably selfish. Yeah. But I'm not sure about being stubborn about diseases. *Now I sound like a reporter*. Anyway, I have a crush on someone. Nobody knows including my "bestfriends". I feel so stressed out without telling anyone -_- Grrr. And also I got a friend who keeps on being jealous. She's controlling my BFFENENENENENLA. -_- Obviously. It's quite mean, you know :P Anyway, I can't be telling the details about that. I'm afraid she will get mad. Like, pissed.Toodles.