The Truth That Lies Behind My Life :(

My life is stressful. I'm sick of being mad at. I'm sick of being scolded. I'm sick of being mad. I'm sick of being depressed. I'm sick of my phobias and traumas. I'm sick of being stressed. I'm sick of being tired. I'M SICK OF EVERYTHING. I feel like dying! I want to die ! Right now. So that I could be free. I don't want to be alive anymore.I cry every single day. I can't stand this anymore. My mum keeps talking and blabber each day at me. And scold me. AND EVERYTHING HAPPENS. I hate my life, I hate myself, I hate me. I hate my family, I hate my friends. I hate everyone. I CAN'T LIVE ANYMORE. I DON'T LIVE ANYMORE. I WANT TO DIE. I DON'T TO BE LIKE THIS. I DON'T WANT TO BE SICK. I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING, I DON'T WANT TO FACE ANYTHING! PLEASE. . I WANT TO BE LIKE OTHER PEOPLE WHO LEADS A HAPPY LIFESTYLE.I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE. I don't have freedom, I don't have a luxurious life, I don't have happiness, I don't have a LIFE. I JUST FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF RIGHT NOW BY CHEATING EVERYONE THAT I LOVE :(